My soul has finally found relief and my mind is at peace. I'm finally shedding off all the lies, darkness and deceit that have been holding me back. I've always been a private, secretive, "internalizing everything" kind of person. I'm learning that with every secret kept, the devil finds someplace to lurk and wait, or possibly make his nucleus/starting ground for all the self challenges/sins that we fall into. I realized that healing comes with exposing the lies and dark secrets, which in turn gives room for light in your life. I love you God... I feel the need to burst out and scream it because You have delivered me and loved me even when I didn't love myself.
Do you know what it is like to bare your inner-most secrets and truths to someone? ...but not just anyone, someone you trust with everything that is dear to you and God (heart and life), someone who can encourage and help you grow in your deliverance. It is the most difficult thing I have ever had to do and the most intimate thing that I have ever done or shared with another human being. At first I believed that I didn't need to share my being/soul with someone because I had God who could fill those shoes and He will forgive me and I will move on. This is true, but God showed/taught me that his healing comes in different avenues and He places people in your life to help you through that process. I feel more than gratitude, my heart is leaping out of my chest in thanksgiving to my Maker whose love, even though I've felt, my mind still cannot fully comprehend but that my heart and soul desires for. I love you God... thank you for loving me.
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